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I'm feeling depressed. I have no idea why. And I'm tired.

I think it might be a side effect from when I stopped taking birth control pills. I'm getting headaches too.

*sigh*

It doesn't help that I just finished one of the best fics I've ever read. I loved it so much, that I got depressed reading it. Sucks, doesn't it?

It must be the I'm-not-taking-pills-anymore- effect.

I've lost weight too. Which isn't good at all. I used to have eating disorder before I began taking pills, and when I started to take them, I sort of got my apetite back. It has disappeared again. And my ribs are visible again.
Not good.

I feel sick.

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I've started school again. It's ok, I guess, except that I have to redo TWO tests!

Before christmas break, or rather, long before that, we had an exam about democracy. I did everything I could to pass. I studied to do good.
And what did I get?
I failed! I fucking failed!

Stupid, bloody disgusting teacher!

I bet she hates me. Seriosy, she never even remember my name!
I'm pretty sure she hates me.

Me: Can I see how I did on my test?
Teacher: Sure. *shows my test*
Me: *reads* FAIL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I swear, she was smirking. She hates me. I have no idea why!

Er, well, maybe because I've happened to fall asleep during her lessons...

Well, that's hardly my fault, is it? I mean, she is so fricking boring, that she speaks during the whole lesson, and don't let us do anything but listening to her constant blabbering.

Fucking, fucking fuck!

Fuck
Fuck
Fuck
Fuck

Ok, something's wrong with me today. I don't know what the hell is the matter with me.

I need something.

But what?

Am I stressed? Maybe I am.. I have to write an essay about the Illimination during WW2. I have to finish my bloody children's book, which I'm not so intresting in doing very much.

I have to study for two tests!

One about psykology, and the other about democracy, which I've already studied my ass off for!!!!!!!!!!!



This is not my day...